Tuesday, May 24, 2022

My Experience With Olanzapine

I unfortunately became schizoaffective after taking CBD oil that was brewed wrong &/or was attacked with a psycho electronic weapon.  I think it may have been both to be honest. 

According to the Mayo Clinic: 

"Schizoaffective disorder is a mental health disorder that is marked by a combination of schizophrenia symptoms, such as hallucinations or delusions, and mood disorder symptoms, such as depression or mania.

The two types of schizoaffective disorder — both of which include some symptoms of schizophrenia — are:

  • Bipolar type, which includes episodes of mania and sometimes major depression
  • Depressive type, which includes only major depressive episodes

Causes

The exact causes of schizoaffective disorder are still being investigated, but genetics are likely a factor.

Risk factors

Factors that increase the risk of developing schizoaffective disorder include:

  • Having a close blood relative — such as a parent or sibling — who has schizoaffective disorder, schizophrenia or bipolar disorder
  • Stressful events that may trigger symptoms
  • Taking mind-altering drugs, which may worsen symptoms when an underlying disorder is present"

No one in my family ever had schizoaffective disorder.  So that only leaves the improperly brewed CBD oil with THC and the attack by a psycho electronic weapon so stressful events and/or a mind-altering drug.   

The second time I was at the mental ward I was diagnosed by a good doctor that actually helped me.  He put me on 10 mg of Olanzapine right away and I had to take it at night before bed.  I continued with the meds even after I was released from the hospital and continued on with out patient care with another doctor because he did not take me on for outpatient for some reason?  He kept staring at me and even one of the patients noticed and told me.  I requested it be a woman doctor this time and I found one that is really good.

I was a lot more tired and constipated.  I purchased some Metamucil with sugar with fibre and that helped.  I did not get the sugar free kind because I read aspartame has 92 side effects including obesity and you can even get diabetes. I should have taken it daily to be honest because now I see that there was a lot of hard stool that was not passing even though I would have small soft stool pass almost daily.  I also started to drink more water and had a huge cup of green tea every morning.  Even still I noticed that my lower stomach area was more extended than usual due to the constipation.  

I also was very snacky and always wanted to eat.  I mostly snacked on sunflower seeds and popcorn to keep my weight under control but it was so hard.  Sometimes I would just get that chocolate bar or more and that bag of chips.  It was like I was pms'ing all the time but I stopped getting my period because of another side effect of Olanzapine.  I gained some weight, about 15 lbs, but thankfully it wasn't more because I worked out and mostly ate healthy like normal.  I went from a size small top and size 7 pant to a size medium top to a size 12 pant.  My hips and chest were a bit larger but I knew it was only temporary and I had to endure it in order to get better.

I wasn't as creative and outgoing... I just stopped blogging and tweeting as much.  My social media was not updated with my life as before.  I became very forgetful and things did not come to me easily like before.  My outlook wasn't as bright as before I started taking it.  Even the little things were more difficult to do like typical housework.  I also needed an alarm in order to get up where as before I got up early naturally.  I was so tired I ended up laying down in the early afternoon and all I wanted to do was just sleep.  I would go to bed very early and then wake up in the middle of the night and not be able to get to sleep.  Everything became more complicated so I would try to sleep and lay down a lot more which was not normal to me.  

My doctor would check in with me every 3 months and each time she asked me how I was doing I would respond, great!  I wasn't committed to the hospital again!  I was fortunate that I did not experience any schizo feelings again.  I think that it was worth all of the side effects in order to have a somewhat normal life. 

After 2 years I asked my doctor if I could go off of the Olanzapine because it was not something I wanted to be on my entire life.  She agreed and prescribed me it at a lower dose.  I went from 10 milligrams to 7.5 mg.  3 - 6 months went by and I was still fine so she lowered my dose to 5 mg.  Everything with me was still fine, no ambulance trips to the hospital, so she lowered my dose again to 2.5 mg.  I started to become less sleepy at the lowest dose and I started to recognize myself again.  It was so amazing and exciting!      

It's been over 3 months since I stopped taking it.  I was a bit nervous at first because I didn't want to be schizo ever again but fortunately it hasn't come back and I have been become more and more myself as the days pass.  I also have been detoxing too.  About a month ago I started to have more frequent bowel movements.  At first it was so watery, then watery with a bit of hard chunks, then I would have days with nothing passing at all, all which was a sign of constipation, so I would take Metamucil and some hard stool mixed with a lot of soft stool passed.  I am now taking Metamucil daily at lunch and it is helping a lot.  I have never pooped so much in my life!  I am going to keep taking Metamucil until the hard stool subsides for at least a week.

I'm not wanting to eat so much anymore and not craving food and snacks like before when I was taking it.  I am fitting in size small tops again and a size 9 pant!!  My chest and hips are going down to my normal size too!  I have a bit more weight to lose but I am not going crazy starving myself.  I have a friend who doesn't eat much and she looks really old but she is like a size zero!  I would rather be thin and curvy and look "freakishly young" then fit in a size nothing.  I was most always thin and curvy, actually.  In my 20s I did go down to 90 lbs on a fat free diet but it just wasn't me.  I still looked amazing but I look much better now.

My periods are still not back to normal.  About 3 weeks after I stopped taking Olanzapine I got a light period but nothing since?? It's been about 2 months after with not even a cramp or any other signs of premenstrual syndrome.   

I am also less forgetful too.  I am able to recall things a lot more easily and more frequently.  I also give myself a bit of a break when I don't because of the giant ordeal I went though.  I also have learned to look things up with Google and YouTube more when I can't remember something.  I also ask people too.  I also find that when I am trying to remember something to just let go and relax and it sometimes comes to me.  I had an amazing memory before but it's coming back!  Hopefully it will be like it was before soon.     

I have psychic abilities during my ordeal so I am so glad that they are still a part of my life.  Nothing to prove and noting to gain are still my mantra.  I don't do it for money or fame.  If I need to know then it should still come to me. 

I'm also becoming more and more active both online and off.  I am cleaning my house a lot and I am creative again and posting more.  I am actually even doing more things than before like going for really, really long walks with my husband because I have a lot more energy.  I am going to sleep around 11-12pm land waking up without an alarm around 7 - 8am naturally on my own.  I am positive again and more optimistic.  It's amazing and I am so grateful.   

So basically I believe I needed Olazapine for a couple years but not for life because I don't have genetic schizophrenia and have not experienced again since my treatment after the second time I had to go to the mental ward because of it.  I'm glad it was available to me during my treatment but I hope to never have to take it again. 

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